A new hope...

i'm contemplating all the diffrent things in the world i'm thinking of the struggles i have faced and the hardships i indured and then at all the good things of what I remember.... and looking at now and then the future.... i did good right....
i'm sure i did....
but
i know
now
i'm sorry

tonight/this morning
truely makes me think....
we both said some things
i think that we'll never forget....

I'm sorry for all i ever did
and i'm glad it's all over
and were both happy
so
well
even if you only changed your opinion of me....
two maybe three days ago...
well
i'm glad that it's happened

Sorry
i know it's late
i owe you....
Big time....

sweet sixteen

holy crap
5 stars
have a watch seriously
never knew chav's had this much crap "tee deal wid"

Fears

I'm sat last night and i saw a spider in the corner of my room
and i was sooooo scared....
isn't it funny how the smallest things can cause the biggest fears?

I mean it's a bug and i'm a 16 year old lad and i'm sat creeped right out...

i guess that applys for so much in life...
fear of exams
fear of truth
fear of well fears!

i don't have a song for this...
not at the moment
i will do though
i think...
probs
well
like
some time
or another...

Any way
laters xx

Life

ok so
i was reading this thing today
like
ummm
another blog
and
well
they like
talked about there view on life and i was shocked co's like i never knew some people saw life as like
a good thing thats just the start so while i was reading i saw
about how like
they thanked there mates for making them who they are
and well
i guess this like applys for us all right?
well
i dunno
i think it does
but
i don't know
i mean
me personally
i keep wishing mine away
wanting it to end some times
hell
i know i've tried forcing it a few times....wasn't worth it
but like
i don't understand how people can see life like that...
but i guess it's our actions and diffrent points and occurence's that make us who we are in life...
and makes us see it diffrently...

Ah well thats life i guess
i was thinking about a song for this...
and best i could find is this
so
enjoy:

link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DegIq21qW5U

Lyrics:
Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,
'Cause I'm awful just to see
'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,
Oh, my agony,
Know that I will never marry,
And baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo,
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)
Goodbye today (goodbye today)
I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

this song always makes me wanna cry... (n)

Mistakes

Last night
i was laying on my bed, thinking like
what if we like
all didn't make mistakes,
wouldn't life be like perfect?
i mean for one we wouldn't have eraser's on pencils!

but of course
we all make mistakes,
and sometimes
well they like can
well like turn out for the better
but
most of the time were not that lucky...
and well
i dunno
i guess i'm just like
being silly
i just was thinking about all the mistakes in my life
Like
ummm
well
"X" is a good example....
man was i f(£$&"£ stupid then...
what a mistake he was!

wow
sorry
i must be boreing you
so like
well
ummm
as always
i'm going to leave you with a link and this time some lyrics
so
that when you do make a mistake
theres summing to look at and well
you'll get the idea....

Link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WlBiLNN1NhQ



Lyrics:

Some things in life are bad

They can really make you mad

Other things just make you swear and curse.

When you're chewing on life's gristle

Don't grumble, give a whistle

And this'll help things turn out for the best...

And...always look on the bright side of life...

Always look on the light side of life...

If life seems jolly rotten

There's something you've forgotten

And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.

When you're feeling in the dumps

Don't be silly chumps

Just purse your lips and whistle - that's the thing.

And...always look on the bright side of life...

Always look on the light side of life...

For life is quite absurd

And death's the final word

You must always face the curtain with a bow.

Forget about your sin - give the audience a grin

Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.

So always look on the bright side of death

Just before you draw your terminal breath

Life's a piece of shit

When you look at it

Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.

You'll see it's all a show

Keep 'em laughing as you go

Just remember that the last laugh is on you.

And always look on the bright side of life...

Always look on the right side of life...

(Come on guys, cheer up!)

Always look on the bright side of life...

Always look on the bright side of life...

(Worse things happen at sea, you know.)

Always look on the bright side of life...

(I mean - what have you got to lose?)

(You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.

What have you lost? Nothing!)

Always look on the right side of life...

Always look on the bright side...
if there is one....*sigh*

songs/lyrics

ok
so basicly
to follow this dark setting my blog has...
i'm going to post some lyrics up here
and some songs
some tunes links etc

so any way
i'll start with some dark things soon!
*insert evil laugh*


but for now i'll just leave you with this...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzCFRU7wUWE

I wouldn't say it was dark
but i love it!!

a little summing for you all

ok so today was pretty fun
had loads to do
and had loads to say
got to see some mates and my brother smile!
which is something i'm happy to see because it makes me know after all the S"(£ he's gone through
he's ok!

one thing i seem to do alot
is to write
"well"
"so"
"basiclly"

ALOT!

so
here's a little summing for those who read this
at the end of the month
we'll count how many times i do it
for like
well
ummm
See if theres enough for a world record...
(probs is for my spelling lmao)


anyway
thats like summing for ya'll

also
just wanted to say a big thanks to some people for today
so:
Steph
lizzy
grandad
nan
mum
dad
andy
emma
robin
amy
alex
ali
callum

and any one else
THANK YOU!

religion!

ok
well
i have been so confused as to were to go with my faith....

so
i looked at atheist
but i don't agree
i'm not agnostic

and i'm not christian
so,
i kept looking
and eventually
i looked away from traditional religions
till i found "Neo-pagan" faiths

Many of these were appealing
Druids
Pagans
Wiccan
Occult

however
i did look deeper and found only one of which that was apealing, this was the Wiccan faith
and i have began following
this lead to many new things in my life
and i enjoyed it
and i really did
yet, i'm happy to say
i'm still enjoying it!

well
of course
this will lead to some debates i know
BUT!
i'll tell you what
i've never been happier!
(but religion is only a small part of this)

the "friends"

ok
well
friends
many of them now, so many i cannot list them all as it would take me far far far to long
but those who read this, will know who they are!

ok
so there are a few people who i need to mention!

first off:
*Jen:
your amazing kiddo!
thank you for all the fun times that we had and here's to a long lasting friendship!!!

*Laura:
well Laura,
how long now? 8years?
thank you doll
so much

*others:
YOUR ALL CRAZY AS HELL!
AND I LOVE YOU FOR IT!


now
the previously mentioned
"Friend"
now this guy
who for the sake of my anger and his name etc
we'll refer to him as "X"

X, is simply put a nutcase
and some one who i completely miss judged when i was younger,
and now I'm still taking crap for it.
but basically
i followed him like a shadow, and wanted to be like him and i was foolish for wanting that,
because of him i began trying to smoke and i drunk with him sometimes,
and basically
now i regret it
with a passion

now X has returned after leaving long ago
for revenge after well
we don't need to go into all of this
but
basically
this'll be a bumpy ride!

OK so i could go on now with the whole friends thing,
but all i wanna say is thank you!
to all of you
without you
i would be nothing

thank you all, for making me something!

past

Ok

So this is where it gets tricky

My past is a little “sour”

I’ve to be blunt had a rough past, in which there has been many things done that i have tried to forget.

Well

I will start at year 8, simply because i cannot remember past then, this is not due to bad memory, it’s to due with a metal pole and a “friend” who we’ll learn about later.

So basically secondary school wasn’t fun

I was bullied a lot at my first school to the extent were my life was threatened several times,

Any way

From what i know all ready, my whole childhood had been troubled

(And here’s where the sceptics are going to find things a little difficult to understand)

And from a young age i was often seen to be talking to myself or the air around me

Of course people dismissed this as “an imaginary friend” however now I’m older

And wiser, i still talk to things around me, however I believe it is spirits I see and can hear,

So

That’s what the sceptics are going to find hard to believe,

And well

I understand this fair enough as they have their own opinions, and well I am not one to judge.

Ok so

Basically this left my whole childhood in a kind of “screwed-state”

By this I mean the lack of friends till I was again older and lack of people willing to be seen with me.

Well

That’s different now!

I lost weight and I lost fears and I managed to learn that sometimes people won’t accept me for me

But there are many who will!

Ok so yeah

I know this is a little muddled about but I’m sure it’ll turn out ok! eventually...

Intro

Ok so
lemmi put a few things in to context first,
i'm 16 so some people maybe think that i'm a little young to have views on the world like i do,
but in reality age matters not,

so
my names mike
and well
the few basic things that well are actually worth knowing is
i have a lovely family
i have a lovely life
and
i have a lovely group of mates
and a fab gf

so any way
moving on from that
after reading through my older brothers blog
i chose i would make one
as i felt it was a rather intresting way of expressing your self,
well
i'll tell ya
it's wired writing on here

ok so
i'm a singer
and i am in a band
i'm sort of an "odd ball"
well
in most peoples opinions
but truth be told
normals dull...
still many skeptical people,
would find me a very hard person to digest
(and yeah i know how that sounds)
but
well i'll leave that up to them to dicide